March 20, 2009


Well, the paradox has been solved: Schroedinger's cat is dead.

We actually had a good appointment with the doctor today. He was straightforward, talked to us like we were informed adults, and listened to my hypotheses and agreed with me. And I even got to wow him by knowing about the concept of a pseudosac, which I learned from reading about A Little Pregnant's first miscarriage. I felt like this was a really productive visit, and I feel like we're on the right track with how to proceed.

We went right down to the lab and both the husband and I gave blood for genetic testing. The doctor is also testing me for blood clotting problems, though the fact that this was my second blighted ovum leads us to believe that this was a chromosomal problem and not a clot.

My husband says that if we produce genetic mutations, his vote is for a Wolverine baby.

I already did all of my grieving for this baby earlier in the week. Unlike the last two times, the death of Baby #3 was not a surprise for me. I had been anticipating it ever since I started bleeding three weeks ago, so it's been a gradual sadness. I am feeling OK. Unlike last time, I didn't have the put-the-fish-back-in-the-water sadness. I took my cytotec (the miscarriage-inducing medicine) an hour ago, so now we're just waiting for the end.

It takes a few weeks for genetic testing to be done, which is fine. We need a break anyway. I don't want to try to get pregnant again until we have a better gameplan and know what the stakes are.

Oh, and today a seriously pregnant lady hopped on the scale at the doctor's office and she weighed less than me. Ouch. So while we're taking this break, I'm gonna give our new elliptical a workout. I've depressedly gained ten pounds since Miscarriage #1, and I really would feel better about myself and my health if I lose that before we start the process again.

Despite the fact that our baby is dead again, I am doing well and keeping my eye on the future.

Plus there's percocet.

Posted by Sarah at March 20, 2009 02:20 PM | TrackBack

I'm relieved that there is a real conclusion this time, though there will be more to the story once the genetic testing results come in.

What might account for the change in the doctor's behavior?

You do not want a Wolverine baby!

Posted by: Amritas at March 20, 2009 02:44 PM

I'm glad you had a good visit with the doctor and all seem to be on the same page. Makes things so much easier.

Exercise is always a good thing. It changes nothing around you, but helps with coping under trying circumstances. I have no idea why this is so, but it is.

Posted by: Teresa at March 20, 2009 03:15 PM

I'm glad you're alright, although I'm still sorry it came to this. And thank God for doctors who actually listen and do their job.

Posted by: dutchgirl at March 20, 2009 03:19 PM

I'm glad it sounds like there is some clarity developing on the medical front.

Hope you're coping as well as it looks like from here. Tons of hugs are coming your way--and I'll make them real in about 5 weeks!

Posted by: FbL at March 20, 2009 03:23 PM

Even with the finality of today's 'news', I am very glad you seem to have finally had an actual conversation with a doctor who seems interested in communicating and helping provide answers and looking for solutions. Keeping an eye on the future seems like a very nice idea. Wishing you as close to comfort as the percocet and all our well wishes will give you...

Posted by: wifeunit at March 20, 2009 04:32 PM

I've been watching all day to see if you'll post. I like this doctor. It's good to have a plan. Jim and I love your sense of humor; we can appreciate it. Wolverine, indeed :)

Posted by: Kate at March 20, 2009 06:53 PM

Sarah - It sounds like the doctor was reasonable, rational and overall a "good" converstation in terms of next steps, etc

I will be thinking of you


Posted by: Keri at March 20, 2009 08:03 PM

The doctor must have read about the nickels.

Glad this doctor acted right.

And, I love you.

Posted by: Guard Wife at March 20, 2009 10:19 PM

Nice to know not EVERYONE there is a moron.

I am sorry.

Posted by: HomefrontSix at March 20, 2009 11:18 PM

*Hugs*. Sorry for the result, even if it was the one you expected. But thank goodness for a productive visit with the doctor and what sounds like a real plan for moving forward.

Posted by: Leofwende at March 21, 2009 01:29 AM

I am so sorry.... I don't have any words. I am thinking about you.....

Posted by: Allison at March 21, 2009 12:08 PM

So this is a hard one. I'm really really sorry you are going through this again! I hate the eternal med cycle but can't even begin to think what you keep going through. On the other hand, from the last two years of indefinite doctor apt after apt I'm glad you finally do I have a conclusion to work with and grieve through - even if it is sucky. :( ::hug::

Posted by: Darla at March 23, 2009 12:20 AM

I'm so sorry to hear this news, even though it did seem like all the signs were pointing to it.

I am glad to see you're taking it relatively in stride having a competent (or at least interested) practitioner helps a lot. I hope some rest and focus on something else will lift your spirits. :)

(((Hugs and prayers for you)))

Posted by: Deltasierra at March 24, 2009 12:06 AM