March 22, 2009

DECEPTIVE

The last time I went through this miscarriage process, I was Afraid Of Becoming a Drug Addict. I wanted to ration out the percocet and only take it when it was extremely necessary. Thus, I spent a lot of time in pain and stupidly trying to justify to myself why I needed another pill. This time around, I threw caution to the wind and started taking them every time the pain returned. Unfortunately, that method taught me why the #1 listed side effect of percocet is nausea; I spent last night running back and forth to the bathroom.

So I skipped the meds at bedtime and managed to sleep through the night. I woke up this morning feeling great. I thought that since this pregnancy wasn't as advanced as the last one, maybe the worst was past me. I thought I was mostly done. I imagined going on in to work tomorrow and living a normal week.

Yeah, shoulda checked my notes from last time again: this process is deceptive. Just when you think you're on the mend, pain rears its head again.

An hour ago, I doubled over in agony.

I hate this crap.

Posted by Sarah at March 22, 2009 10:47 AM | TrackBack
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You will not become a drug addict.

I keep wondering what stage of the cycle you're in at any given moment.

I'm glad you were able to sleep last night. A shame the comfort didn't last.

I hope that you don't have to go to work tomorrow ... and that your pain ends soon.

Posted by: Amritas at March 22, 2009 12:17 PM

Amritas -- I called in to work and they said it was no problem. I am scheduled to work on Friday and Saturday for 2 hrs each day, so hopefully I will be better by then. But I really was feeling so OK when I woke up that I thought I could go in on Monday like normal. I was wrong :)

Posted by: Sarah at March 22, 2009 12:24 PM

Whew! Thanks for the update.

Posted by: Amritas at March 22, 2009 01:04 PM

I guess I'm going to have to admit private health care is sometimes not any better than the military.
At the same time you started bleeding so did my grandson's fiancee. She took the meds and had pains for 12 days, then they decided, very wisely, that she was an emergency surgery patient for ectopic pregnancy. Thank God. The surgeon says he saved the tube, the other one was cystic, so she should be able to conceive. Sounds to me like she had cystic ovaries so she will not be surprised at further problems. At least this granny won't. I hope at some time they do a survey on the service you have received.
My first child was born at the naval hospital in Corpus Chrisi. Before we came home the base commander! came in and talked with me about how I felt about the care I received. I don't know if anything I suggested was acted upon but I do know I did not even get to hold her until she was 5 days old. I had complications and most babies were with their mothers, but if they could not care for the baby they were kept in the newborn nursery, not to be touched by anyone who was not a nurse. We are as close as any mother and daughter could be but still...

Posted by: Ruth H at March 22, 2009 06:31 PM

I have that same problem with Percocet, me and narcotics don't get along very well. I always wondered too why people would want to feel that way? I'm sorry that you're hurting, I hope it ends soon.

Posted by: dutchgirl at March 22, 2009 09:14 PM

Ruth,

Thanks for the reminder that private health care isn't perfect. There will always be worse than average health care providers in every system. Error is inevitable, so we have to choose a system that best deals with it. Error correction is more likely amidst the diversity possible under capitalism than in a state monopoly. Unfortunately, that abstract knowledge does nothing for victims of medical malpractice. Even if a system works 99.9% of the time, the suffering of 0.1% cannot be denied.

I'm sorry you weren't able to hold your daughter during those first five days. There are some moments in life that come only once, and it's sad to see them slip away.

Posted by: Amritas at March 22, 2009 11:23 PM

MOST narcotics will make you nauseous, if you don't know what you're doing.
1. Eat. High-fat and high sugar foods especially. I recommend Krispy Kremes with brown gravy. (or anything from thisiswhyyourefat.com)
2. Drink. Lots of fluids. Lots of fluids with alcohol. Lots of fluids where alcohol is the main ingredient.
3. Make sure you're near a bed or a couch.

Try this. Eat a sack of doughnuts (glazed) followed by a hershey bar. Followed by dulche de leche girl scout cookies (or samoas). The take two percocet, and wash them down with a gimlet (which'll taste extra sour after the doughnuts) or with a rum runner. Then have a cup of coffee with baileys and cream.
Climb on couch, cover up with a wubbie and have Russ rub your feet.

You'll get addicted to the foot rubs and doughnuts well before the percocet. When you no longer fit on the couch, you're cured!
--Dr. Chuck

Posted by: Chuck at March 23, 2009 09:29 AM