Yesterday I had lunch with my best friend from high school. I hadn't seen her in almost nine years; the last time I saw her I wasn't even dating my husband yet. We reconnected via email around the time I started trying to have a baby. She has been a good friend to have in my life over the past two years; she had to undergo monstrous amounts of testing and IVF to have her two children, but the sting of infertility is still fresh with her. She didn't dust her hands off and get over it after her children came along, and she keenly understands my gripes and frustrations. And she lost her first baby, so there's that angle we share too.
In short, she makes me feel normal.
With my husband gone and babymaking out of the question, I haven't given much thought to the babies we lost or the one we'd like to have soon. It's been a non-issue for me as my HCG level steadily declined and there was no chance of getting pregnant again in the meantime. I haven't talked about the issue with anyone in a long time, but my visits with Guard Wife and my friend from high school, two women who've been in my shoes, brought the issue to the forefront for me again.
And this morning, the fertility clinic called me and said they have an opening when I get back, so I scheduled an appointment to see if we can figure out this crazy puzzle.
Time to get back on the horse.
Oh, and Darla and I are totally going to have triplets at the same time and move in together while our husbands are deployed. Take that, Jon and Kate.
Posted by Sarah at August 22, 2008 12:35 PM | TrackBackYes we are! Go team! And way to get back on that horse, though only those that repeatedly get bucked off can full understand.
Posted by: Darla at August 23, 2008 09:48 PMSo so glad I could make you feel normal. That's probably the most lovely and unexpected compliment I could ever imagine. It was a wonderful reunion for me too, and I am so happy we made time to see each other. Lots of love!
Posted by: Lane at August 24, 2008 10:37 PM