March 28, 2009

QUIET MY HEAD

This blog has been responsible for some of the best experiences of my life. I wouldn't have any of my close friends without this blog. Sometimes it brings me such joy and comfort. But it is also responsible for some of the most stressful moments of my life. It sucks to lose a baby. It sucks even worse to hear that you deserved it, that you talk about it too much, that you're self-absorbed or just plain wrong for your feelings about it. That's hard to take, and I'm starting to wonder if it's really healthy for me. I'm tired of lying in bed at night losing sleep over something that I or someone else said on the blog.

I'm shutting off the computer for a while. Truly off: no email, no Facebook, no blog. I need to quiet the noise in my head for a while.

I'm not doing well and I need to find a way to cope. I'm gonna try silence for a few days.

Posted by Sarah at March 28, 2009 11:00 AM | TrackBack
Comments

I hope you know that you have my support and prayers. I wish you the most healing of silences.

Posted by: dutchgirl at March 28, 2009 02:11 PM

I'm sorry. . . .

Posted by: Lucy at March 28, 2009 10:17 PM

Sending lots of cyber hugs and prayers. I hope the silence quiets the noise.

Posted by: HomefrontSix at March 29, 2009 01:49 AM

Im so sorry that you have had to suffer not just physical pain but also the emotional beating that some feel they have the right to hit you with.
you and your husband are in my thoughts and prayers.

Posted by: orlane at March 29, 2009 08:45 AM

It's hard to know what to say...but the people who are the most blessed are often the most inconsiderate because of their blessings. They don't know how lucky they are. It's a pain in the ass paradox. But say what you feel, because suppressing it won't help. There are many of us who know what you are going through, and understand.

Posted by: Mrs. Who at March 29, 2009 01:23 PM

Sending you and your husband love and prayers. I hope the silence heals. I think you are one of the bravest woman I've read on the webs.

Posted by: Mary at March 29, 2009 07:48 PM

I wish you peace.

Posted by: Amy at March 30, 2009 10:08 AM

Sarah - I am sorry you are receiving nasty comments, etc. Not sure how anyone could say "you deserve this". Hoping you are feeling better.

Keri

Posted by: keri at March 31, 2009 09:42 AM

I am so sorry that you have had to deal with people who make you feel even worse than you already do. I have been reading your blog for a while now but have never commented. You are one of the strongest women I've ever "known", and do not deserve to feel the pain you are experiencing, let alone any additional pain caused by others. You are in my thoughts and prayers daily, and my heart aches for you.

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