March 09, 2009


It's choose your own adventure time again.

You want to trust the doctors
Their procedure is the best
But the last try was a failure
And the intern was a mess.

We're headed to the ultrasound tomorrow. I am not optimistic. The pain and symptoms got worse today.

They're saying don't be frightened
But you're weakened by the sight of it
You lock into a pattern
And you know that it's the last ditch
You're trying to see through it
And it doesn't make sense

I don't know if I can do all this again if we have bad news today. I don't know if I can subject myself to even more fruitless heartache.

And you're questioning the sciences
And questioning religion
You're looking like an idiot
And you no longer care.

I don't know what else I can do if this didn't work. We've tried everything.

And you're looking for salvation
And you're looking for deliverance

Funny that this song is called "Hope." I sure don't feel much of that.

Posted by Sarah at March 9, 2009 08:15 PM | TrackBack

Thinking of you. Much love, candles lit and fingers crossed.

Posted by: Lane at March 9, 2009 07:59 PM

I am really really hoping for the best for you, girl. I really hope you don't have to endure anymore heartache. You and your hubby. I want to say the right words, I just don't know what they are. I hope that's enough.

Posted by: Sara at March 9, 2009 08:26 PM

I have no words. Just prayers. Lots of them.

Posted by: HomefrontSix at March 9, 2009 10:03 PM

Sending good vibes and prayers your way.

Posted by: T at March 9, 2009 10:35 PM

More prayers from here. :)

Posted by: Deltasierra at March 9, 2009 11:17 PM

A deal is a deal so you know what I'm thinking about right now.

Posted by: Guard Wife at March 10, 2009 08:24 AM

I *heart* you to pieces and you've got all the prayers, well-wishes, etc. I can muster up for you.

If there's anything I can do for you say the word.

Posted by: Susan at March 10, 2009 09:23 AM

*heavy-duty prayers*

Posted by: kannie at March 10, 2009 11:45 AM

Ditto everyone's prayers and well-wishes. I wish there was something more that I could say. *Hugs*

Posted by: Leofwende at March 10, 2009 11:52 AM