I took a pregnancy test before my husband left, and it was negative. We smiled wryly, as we have learned to do, and decided that it really was for the best. We had already paid all the money to do the fertility treatments, and any baby conceived at this point would be due right at the same time as my husband's return from Iraq. Next month was better, next month would let him come home in time to see baby born.
Plus, how do you call the fertility clinic and tell them, "Nevermind, we did it on our own"? Embarrassing. We laughed and said that we were totally OK with not being pregnant this month, the first time we've thought that since we started this whole process.
You know where I'm going with this, right?
In order to start fertility treatments, you have to start a new cycle. So I kept waiting and waiting. Everyone kept saying that I might be pregnant, but I said that I had already taken a negative test. And I didn't feel pregnant, not like I did last October. And a long-ish cycle is normal for me, so I just kept waiting.
Last month, I was so certain that I was pregnant that I took three tests because I didn't believe the negative results. This weekend, I took two tests because I didn't believe the positive results of the first one. I even took one of those ones that spells it all out.
I think it's a darn shame that my husband wasn't home a few more days to see the positive test, but I hope to goodness he's home in time for the birth. And naturally this happened on the day after he told me he'd be out of the loop for a while (i.e. traveling from Kuwait to his final destination). I couldn't tell anyone else before I told him, but the only way I could manage to keep my mouth shut was to ignore phone calls from anyone I'd be tempted to blab to. An eternity passed between taking that test and my husband's phone call.
So now I have to go call the fertility clinic and sheepishly tell them that I won't be needing their services. Yet. Hang on to the...ahem...stuff my husband left behind, just in case. We still have the emotional scars from last time to be too optimistic just yet.
But I'm surprisingly cheery about the whole thing. Right after the miscarriage, I thought I'd be a nervous wreck if I got pregnant again. But enough time has passed that I am only filled with joy and hope.
And of course this baby is going to stick; it's the least convenient time we could've managed. And we paid money for tests and cryogenics that we didn't end up needing. Bad timing and wasted money, that's a sure sign it will work out, right?
Here's to everything I loathe: an unexpected, poorly-timed, and "surprise" pregnancy!
Posted by Sarah at May 12, 2008 01:18 AM | TrackBackMy prayers are with you! Happy Mothers Day, Sarah!
hugs,& bunches of love,
from gunnar's mom
You honestly made my Mother's Day with this news. I cannot stop smiling.
So, so, SO excited.
M1 gasped with suprise, clapped her hands over her mouth & started giggling, she was so giddy. M2 said, "Oh. I already KNOWED that." So, apparently, she's psychic. She also told me she knows how the baby got there--wait for it--GOD put the baby there because He's magic, you know. :)
Congrats again!!!!!!!!!!!
Posted by: Guard Wife at May 11, 2008 10:56 PMSo, ironically, one of my baby boys starts crying as I start to type this. And as I am reading, I am so excited and happy... And start crying. So, yes, I have officially cried every single day this week. Thanks, Sarah. HAHAHAHAH! YAY!
Posted by: Allison at May 11, 2008 11:08 PMYAY! I am so happy for you! Best, best, best wishes to you and your husband. This baby couldn't have picked better parents!
Congratulations!
Posted by: David Boxenhorn at May 11, 2008 11:59 PMSarah, that is wonderful news! Ours was a "surprise" pregnancy also and I didn't know how I was going to be able to handle it with Homer being deployed, but this particular quote has helped me a lot during the difficult times in my life, "For everything there is a season.. " I wish you the absolute best and a healthy and happy pregnancy!
Posted by: Penny at May 12, 2008 12:18 AMI'm so freakin' happy for you. Happy Mother's Day.
Posted by: Erin at May 12, 2008 12:29 AMCongratulations!!!
Posted by: Army Blogger Wife at May 12, 2008 06:59 AMWishing you all the best!!
Posted by: Ann M. at May 12, 2008 07:04 AMHOORAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Posted by: MargeinMI at May 12, 2008 08:07 AMsurprise!!!
SUCH good news - I join the other well-wishers. And on Mother's Day, too! heh!
Posted by: prophet at May 12, 2008 08:52 AMI am so happy for you, Sarah! I will keep you, baby, and your hubby in my prayers!
Posted by: Vypergirl at May 12, 2008 08:53 AMAfter following your blog for the past few months I wasn't able to read it for a couple of weeks (boyfriend transferred to a new base) and was so happy to read that you're pregnant! Congratulations and I will keep you and your family in my prayers
Posted by: Stephanie at May 12, 2008 09:04 AMThis is wonderful news, and hope you enjoyed your first Mother's Day.
Sending all my very best thoughts and prayers to you, your hubby and child. (And Charlie - don't want to leave the pup out!)
Posted by: jck at May 12, 2008 09:26 AMJoy and hope right back at you :)
Thanks for making my day a little brighter with your phone call! I'm already thinking of the baby and maternity items that I can start mailing you... how about if I don't bombard you all at once?
Love, Kate
That is the best kind of surprise! That's so LIFE, you can't plan how it happens, it just does.
Wonderful, wonderful news. I didn't read this on Mother's Day, wish I had, but it is delightful just the same.
Yippee! Been following you along for a while and am tickled (yup, from the south) to read you're pregnant. Lots of prayers and well wishes all will remain well.
Posted by: Susan at May 12, 2008 09:36 AMI am soooo happy for you, and I can't stop smiling...really, you guys are going to make great parents, and I am so happy you have this "task" as a Spartan wife during the deployment.
Posted by: CaliValleyGirl at May 12, 2008 09:36 AM*snoopy dance*
Posted by: airforcewife at May 12, 2008 09:41 AMWhat a mother's day present! Many heartfelt congratulations!! And I had to laugh about the circumstances... life just is just, well, life. You can't make this stuff up. :)
Posted by: dutchgirl at May 12, 2008 09:57 AMCongratulations!!! I'm so happy for you guys. Will you be needing that T-shirt we discussed?
Posted by: Mare at May 12, 2008 09:59 AMYour email reply popped up while I was on the phone and literally took my breath away. Your post at SpouseBUZZ had made me wonder, but like you I refused to believe it.
As I said, you are in my constant prayers--both for physical health and emotional even keel.
Yay!! *hugs*
Posted by: FbL at May 12, 2008 10:05 AMWOOHOO!!! That is awesome.
Posted by: Reasa at May 12, 2008 11:44 AMOH MY!!!
I feel that I'm the last to know! I didn't check your blog this weekend and now this is what I see?!!!
Congratulations! I am SO thrilled for you. What a Mother's day!
You guys are in our prayers! As always.
Posted by: Tonya at May 12, 2008 11:58 AMI hope the answer to your title question is yes!
Congratulations!
Posted by: Amritas at May 12, 2008 12:12 PMCongratulations! And will you be surprised if I say that, having it happen all the wrong way around is probably the best way for things to happen... gets you ready for parenthood where nothing at all goes as expected. Learn to roll with it early and it will make your life easier later.
;-)
Posted by: Teresa at May 12, 2008 12:41 PMCongratulations!!! I'm normally a lurker and have been following your pregnancy quest - this is wonderful news!
Posted by: MP at May 12, 2008 01:44 PMCongrats, Sarah. I am very happy for you. Best wishes for a smooth pregnancy.
Posted by: Butterfly Wife at May 12, 2008 03:00 PMThis news made "my heart grow"...
Thats what the Collective call it when good news makes Momma cry......
Congratulations Mom and Dad!!
Prayers extended to the 3 of you
Posted by: awtm at May 12, 2008 03:01 PMCongratulations!!! Despite the "bad" timing, it's got to be a great feeling after trying so hard and so long. Here's hoping for a smooth pregnancy for you. *hugs*
Posted by: Emily at May 12, 2008 03:42 PMCongrats! I know you have no idea who I am, but I read your blog all the time and am so happy for you!
Posted by: Tara at May 12, 2008 04:04 PMYAY!!!
I was hoping that was what the spousebuzz post meant! As I had told you through email the same thing happened to us with the freezing and the natural pregnancy right before deployment. Many positive wishes for a healthy pregnancy! So very happy for you and your husband!!
Posted by: wifeunit at May 12, 2008 04:53 PMCongrats!!! Happy Mothers Day!
Posted by: Vonn at May 12, 2008 05:53 PMYAY! I'm so very very happy for you!
Posted by: sharona at May 12, 2008 06:45 PMWow! Teach me a lesson about going TDY and not reading your blog for a week!
Congratulations! Wonderful news!
Posted by: R1 at May 12, 2008 07:01 PMSuper news...Love and prayers to your family!
Posted by: Jennifer at May 12, 2008 09:35 PMI'm late to the party, but -- congratulations!
**doing a happy dance**
Posted by: JT at May 13, 2008 06:03 PMCongratulations! It'll stick. How exciting!
Posted by: Jen at May 13, 2008 09:15 PMGOOD HEAVENS! Miss a few days of TTG and...all
heck breaks loose.
CONGRATULATIONS.