I have a couple of things I want to blog about, but to be honest I've been feeling too grumpy lately. Today was just one of those days where everything went wrong: I drove to the next post to re-register our car and realized that I had left my ID in the pocket of my gym sweatshirt. So I drove all the way home and back, only to find that they close for lunch, which they failed to mention when I called for their hours. I got the car registered and then went to drop the dog's stuff off at my friend's house; naturally I had forgotten her key. And so on. Just one of those days.
But it's more than just that: I can tell that I am getting irritable with the end of the deployment. My husband has been on ten billion long-term missions before, but the one this week seriously irks me. I'm grumpy that 1-77 returned from Iraq after only 361 days. I nearly ripped some heads off last night at the FRG meeting; why would you attend a briefing on the redeployment schedule and then just sit there and loudly gossip with the wife next to you, making it impossible for others to hear the guest speaker even when she was using a microphone?
I'm finally tired of the deployment. Thank heavens I've only felt this way for a week; I can't imagine being one of those people who's felt this way all year.
They say PTSD and Combat Operational Stress can include loss of motivation, crying spells, and irritability. Chalk me up as a sufferer.
Posted by Sarah at February 10, 2005 05:36 PMSarah, you're entitled to be as grumpy as you want to be now. You've been quite a "trooper." In fact, I think you've been amazing.
Hey, you sound like ME--and I've got NO excuse.
Posted by: Beth at February 10, 2005 09:44 PMHey Sarah!
If anybody is entitled, you certainly are!
Just keep the faith, plan for your Soldier's return, and stay frosty. One step at a time is all you need to worry about.
These are the worst days. But the reward at the end is absolutely wonderful!
I *love* your blog and read it daily. I'm constantly telling stories from it to my wife and kids. It's almost like you're family . . .
Posted by: Dave at February 10, 2005 11:31 PMCourage, dear heart... Stay strong...
Posted by: Sgt. B. at February 11, 2005 12:29 AMSarah,
Press on, dear. This time may seem like its dragging, but it will be over soon. I know your patience and forbearance will pay off when your husband returns home. You and he will then be the center of each other's attention, as it should be.
It will all be worth the patience when it is over. God bless you for your suffering, dear. Press on. The future is going to be much brighter shortly.
Subsunk
Posted by: Subsunk at February 11, 2005 02:21 AMI, too, am experiencing the same thing. This whole year seems to have gone relatively fast, but these last three or four weeks have been awful. It doesn't help that we haven't been able to have our long chats on the phone either. The love of your life will be home soon and all will be right with the world!
I love you!
Mama
Posted by: Nancy at February 11, 2005 05:40 AM{{{{Sarah}}}
There's light at the end of that tunnel. Hang in there, you've done great this year.
We're "officially" at 354 days (he reported 2/15, but the days didn't count until the 24th)
We went into double digits just a few hours ago, 99 days to go.
You've done mech better than I have over the past 12 months. Be proud of what you have both accomplished and "drive on"
Tink
Posted by: Tink at February 11, 2005 08:52 AMHang in there girl!
Hugs for you ((((((())))))))))
Posted by: MargeinMI at February 11, 2005 03:32 PMIt happens Sarah, and it'll pass. Keep the faith, you're doing just fine.
Gotta go destroy some more Sarin now.
Kalroy
Posted by: Kalroy at February 12, 2005 03:19 AMMaybe I can brighten your day a bit: your comment about men knitting got me started. I may cut my "first scarf" short as a "first dishrag", though -- I want a more interesting pattern!
Posted by: James at February 16, 2005 01:38 AM